Saturday, 3 April 2010
Bite my lip Scar my flesh Take the pain Mentally regress Pain and torture Is my life A happy ending Nowhere in sight Can't hurt you Hurt myself Not as good Works just as well Scars on my body Will show what I mean The blood on my hands From a cut, deep and clean I do this to me 'Cause I can't do it to you Your blood would be better But mine will do ξ
Death consumes us painfully slow From the second we are born The bad die young, the good die younger The loved one first to go Life is almost not worth living It's filled with so much pain To me a form of torture A gift that's not worth giving Everything I get close to Gets corrupted, or it dies I don't know how to fix this Oter than to stay away from you ξ
Forever forgotten A blind spot In the eternal darkness that is the mind Insignificant to all Nothing to be remembered by Overshadowed by the greatness of others Achievements nonexistant In the bigger picture The picture of the universe Never ending Ever expanding Forever consuming ξ
Wednesday, 31 March 2010
Stomping, storming, screaming, yelling Fits of rage Bloodlust appearant through bloodshot eyes Hatred of the world and it's humanity Pushing through the crowded throngs A man on a mission of destruction ξ
Sunday, 28 March 2010
Mood:
irritated
I'm sitting pondering The emotions in my life Wondering what makes me tick Wondering why I bother to feel Feelings cause pain Pain causes suffering I am not happy I have not been happy in a long time The front that the world sees it just that A front A fake An illusion overshadowing the truth The reality that I am lonely Miserable Constantly eluded by the things I pursue Things which could bring happiness Things missing ξ
Wednesday, 17 March 2010
Mood:
caffeinated
Emotional distortions Wild, twisting thoughts Looking down on your cold body Was the thing that drove me nuts I looked down on your casket And I couldn't help but laugh It was driving me insane I just wanted you back You were always there for me And I was there for you Even after you were dead I did all that I could do I dug up the fresh soil That was mounded on your grave And carried your lifeless body Devoutedly, like a slave I took you back to our house Where I laid you down And that's wher I made love to you In your burial gown You were tighter than I remembered And your juices did not flow But it had to be the greatest fuck That I had ever known When I was all finished And I could go no more I sat up, got out of bed And put my feet upon the floor I walked into the bathroom Where I found my pills I swollwed the whole bottle Too many pills will kill I dressed myself in my best suit And laid down next to you I leaned over and I kissed you And told you I'd see you soon When we made those sacred vows On our day of wed We promised only death would part But I can't live if you are dead My love for you is everlasting Eternal and unknown I will follow you into death To keep the seeds that we have sewn My life will end eventually But my love will never die My time to leave this world is now Please, for me, do not cry ξ
Mood:
caffeinated
There she sits in darkness Shivering, alone Waiting for the ending And the sins she must atone Staring blankly in to space She ponders what's next to come Peeking through the window shades Is the first glimmer of sun The light of dawn runs out the dark Daybreak sounds were coming in In the distance she can hear The trees and birds and wind The sounds do not bring happiness Or any kind of peace They bring feelings of unease and fear No stress does it release The new found light of morning Begins reaching to the floor In what used to be the shadows Are two bodies over by the door Her step dad, that drunk prick Had raised his hand too many times When he tried to stick his dick in her That's where she drew the line He had been out drinking Had himself a grand old time Came home and found her mom asleep And his step daughter looking fine She said "Get off!", he smacked her hard Right across the face That was when her mom awoke And saw what was taking place Her mom blamed her, not his drunk ass Called her a filthy little whore Told her it was time to go She could live there no more He chimed in and told her mom To go away and back to bed And if she gave him any lip He'd beat her til she was dead Mom slapped him, he made a fist He swung and broke her jaw The thing that happened very next He never even saw Daughter grabbed a knife and drove it home Jabbed it right in to his neck She saw the blood gush from the wound As his body hit the deck Her mom lashed out, angry In a violent fit of rage Now she's feeling cornered Like a mouse trapped in a cage She drove the blade home once more Again and again and again She was lost inside a fog Of salty tears and adrenaline When the fog had lifted And she'd seen what she had done She dropped the knife, watched it hit the floor And went and got the dead man's gun This brings us back full circle To where this tale began She knew that she would not get far No matter how quickly she ran Sirens sounded in the distance now The neighbors must have called the cops She knew now there was no hope for her Her actions were over the top The sirens, they grew louder The sun continued on it's rise She, bawling, pulled the hammer back Determination in her eyes No more sadness, no more fear No more anguish, no more pain She put the barrel to her chin And a bullet through her brain ξ
Mood:
caffeinated
Times are changing For good and for bad The fact there is no middle ground Makes me slightly sad For each good thing that happens In my pathetic life Three more things go extremely wrong Causing endless pain and strife If I could only close the lid Drive the final nail Locked inside this wooden box I hate this life of fail ξ
Mood:
caffeinated
Walking through these broken streets I see heart breaking transpirations Children running wild Parents out of control Families broken The world around me broken There is no hope left for humanity It's demise shall soon be imminent To be brought upon itself Meant to be it's own destructor Raising future leaders of the next generation All to be unresponsible, illiterate sissys We shall be our own downfall ξ
Wednesday, 10 March 2010
Mood:
blue
All alone and lonely A depressing state of mind My heart torn out and stomped upon Loves' direction I can't find Sweet dreams all ripped to pieces Shattered, broken on the floor Forever lost in shadows Wishing I could find the door The one which leads to happiness To fullfilment and success The door which leads to better things So my pain may finally rest ξ
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