Mood:
caffeinated
Emotional distortions
Wild, twisting thoughts
Looking down on your cold body
Was the thing that drove me nuts
I looked down on your casket
And I couldn't help but laugh
It was driving me insane
I just wanted you back
You were always there for me
And I was there for you
Even after you were dead
I did all that I could do
I dug up the fresh soil
That was mounded on your grave
And carried your lifeless body
Devoutedly, like a slave
I took you back to our house
Where I laid you down
And that's wher I made love to you
In your burial gown
You were tighter than I remembered
And your juices did not flow
But it had to be the greatest fuck
That I had ever known
When I was all finished
And I could go no more
I sat up, got out of bed
And put my feet upon the floor
I walked into the bathroom
Where I found my pills
I swollwed the whole bottle
Too many pills will kill
I dressed myself in my best suit
And laid down next to you
I leaned over and I kissed you
And told you I'd see you soon
When we made those sacred vows
On our day of wed
We promised only death would part
But I can't live if you are dead
My love for you is everlasting
Eternal and unknown
I will follow you into death
To keep the seeds that we have sewn
My life will end eventually
But my love will never die
My time to leave this world is now
Please, for me, do not cry
ξ
Mood:
caffeinated
There she sits in darkness
Shivering, alone
Waiting for the ending
And the sins she must atone
Staring blankly in to space
She ponders what's next to come
Peeking through the window shades
Is the first glimmer of sun
The light of dawn runs out the dark
Daybreak sounds were coming in
In the distance she can hear
The trees and birds and wind
The sounds do not bring happiness
Or any kind of peace
They bring feelings of unease and fear
No stress does it release
The new found light of morning
Begins reaching to the floor
In what used to be the shadows
Are two bodies over by the door
Her step dad, that drunk prick
Had raised his hand too many times
When he tried to stick his dick in her
That's where she drew the line
He had been out drinking
Had himself a grand old time
Came home and found her mom asleep
And his step daughter looking fine
She said "Get off!", he smacked her hard
Right across the face
That was when her mom awoke
And saw what was taking place
Her mom blamed her, not his drunk ass
Called her a filthy little whore
Told her it was time to go
She could live there no more
He chimed in and told her mom
To go away and back to bed
And if she gave him any lip
He'd beat her til she was dead
Mom slapped him, he made a fist
He swung and broke her jaw
The thing that happened very next
He never even saw
Daughter grabbed a knife and drove it home
Jabbed it right in to his neck
She saw the blood gush from the wound
As his body hit the deck
Her mom lashed out, angry
In a violent fit of rage
Now she's feeling cornered
Like a mouse trapped in a cage
She drove the blade home once more
Again and again and again
She was lost inside a fog
Of salty tears and adrenaline
When the fog had lifted
And she'd seen what she had done
She dropped the knife, watched it hit the floor
And went and got the dead man's gun
This brings us back full circle
To where this tale began
She knew that she would not get far
No matter how quickly she ran
Sirens sounded in the distance now
The neighbors must have called the cops
She knew now there was no hope for her
Her actions were over the top
The sirens, they grew louder
The sun continued on it's rise
She, bawling, pulled the hammer back
Determination in her eyes
No more sadness, no more fear
No more anguish, no more pain
She put the barrel to her chin
And a bullet through her brain
ξ
Mood:
caffeinated
Times are changing
For good and for bad
The fact there is no middle ground
Makes me slightly sad
For each good thing that happens
In my pathetic life
Three more things go extremely wrong
Causing endless pain and strife
If I could only close the lid
Drive the final nail
Locked inside this wooden box
I hate this life of fail
ξ
Mood:
caffeinated
Walking through these broken streets
I see heart breaking transpirations
Children running wild
Parents out of control
Families broken
The world around me broken
There is no hope left for humanity
It's demise shall soon be imminent
To be brought upon itself
Meant to be it's own destructor
Raising future leaders of the next generation
All to be unresponsible, illiterate sissys
We shall be our own downfall
ξ
Mood:
blue
All alone and lonely
A depressing state of mind
My heart torn out and stomped upon
Loves' direction I can't find
Sweet dreams all ripped to pieces
Shattered, broken on the floor
Forever lost in shadows
Wishing I could find the door
The one which leads to happiness
To fullfilment and success
The door which leads to better things
So my pain may finally rest
ξ
Mood:
sad
Crimson red pumping through constricted veins
Trying to escape the monotony of the unchanging path
Circular. Eternal.
Praying to meet the air
To be set free upon the world
To be allowed to run rampant
Breaking the chains of the flesh
ξ
Mood:
down
Here I'm sitting
cold and lonely
wishing I was dead.
Wishing i had the strength to end it
to put a bullet in my head.
Wish I could find happiness
like what life used to be.
Maybe it's still out there
and just not looking for me.
ξ
lazy