Horrifying nightmares

Terrifying dreams

Keeping me from sleeping

The constant, endless screams

Visions of my future

Haunting my minds eye

Tears my soul to pieces

So here I sit an cry

Crying out for comfort

Knowing I am here alone

Another night of misery

For sins I can't atone

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If I woke tomorrow

And tomorrow wasn't there

Then I'd wake tomorrow

And no longer have a care

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Trapped

In a tangled web of confusion

Hundreds and thousands of colors

Swirling, spinning, meshing

Images dance in my mind

None coherant

None feasable

The paths I ave to choose from are shadowy

Narrow, winding

Entangling me even more

The harder I tryto break free

The more tangled I get

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Lies and deception

The truth goes untold

Forever and ever

Since days of old

For thousands of years 

People have lied

To cast away anguish

And diminishing pride

We lie to ourselves

To each other and then

We bury the truth

Again and again

I lie to myself

About where I am going

This path I walk blindfolded

Where  I am headed there is no way of knowing

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Light the wick

Watch it burn

You will feel 

Your stomach churn

 I see a shimmer

In your eye

A tear drips down 

You start to cry

The poison mixes

With your blood

You begin to fall down

You hit the floor with a thud

You drank the drink

To end your life

It cut out your existance

Like the blade of a knife

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Bite my lip

Scar my flesh

Take the pain

Mentally regress

Pain and torture

Is my life

A happy ending

Nowhere in sight

Can't hurt you

Hurt myself

Not as good

Works just as well

Scars on my body

Will show what I mean

The blood on my hands

From a cut, deep and clean

I do this to me

'Cause I can't do it to you

Your blood would be better

But mine will do

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Death consumes us painfully slow

From the second we are born

The bad die young, the good die younger

The loved one first to go

Life is almost not worth living

It's filled with so much pain

To me a form of torture

A gift that's not worth giving

Everything I get close to

Gets corrupted, or it dies

I don't know how to fix this

Oter than to stay away from you

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Forever forgotten

A blind spot

In the eternal darkness that is the mind

Insignificant to all 

Nothing to be remembered by

Overshadowed by the greatness of others

Achievements nonexistant

In the bigger picture

The picture of the universe

Never ending

Ever expanding

Forever consuming

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Stomping, storming, screaming, yelling

Fits of rage

Bloodlust appearant through bloodshot eyes

Hatred of the world and it's humanity

Pushing through the crowded throngs

A man on a mission of destruction

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Mood:  irritated

I'm sitting pondering

The emotions in my life

Wondering what makes me tick

Wondering why I bother to feel

Feelings cause pain 

Pain causes suffering

I am not happy

I have not been happy in a long time

The front that the world sees it just that

A front

A fake

An illusion overshadowing the truth

The reality that I am lonely

Miserable

Constantly eluded by the things I pursue

Things which could bring happiness

Things missing

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